The Third Time, which was the first fic I posted on AO3 during the current round of fic-writing, has made it to 200 kudos. I know this isn’t my first fic to hit 200, but it’s a gen one-shot in which Loki dies for real, and it’s been steadily creeping its way up to 200 over the course of 2 and a half years. Which feels like more of an accomplishment, or at least a different kind of accomplishment, than a post-Ragnarok Thorki fic getting 200 kudos over a couple of weeks.
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Sleeping Your Way to the Top | Mayhem – engmaresh – Thor (Movies) [Archive of Our Own]
Oh. My. God.
Loki/Mayhem from the Allstate Insurance ads. Rated E.
“I am the start of a string of overconfident decisions. Right now I’m your best bet to catching the Grandmaster’s eye. And your best bet: sleeping with Mayhem like me.”
This is gloriously funny, guys!
@raven-brings-light @pedeka @lunariagold @philosopherking1887 @veliseraptor @gaslightgallows @incredifishface @stmonkeys @calamity-cain @satanssyn-n-things @darklittlestories @angrymadsygin @icybluepenguin
I was skeptical of the premise, but that was really funny and clever, and even (dare I say) a little poignant.
Sleeping Your Way to the Top | Mayhem – engmaresh – Thor (Movies) [Archive of Our Own]
I rewatched Thor last night. I hadn’t seen it in a while. I didn’t really like it before. I thought the larger than life good guys were a bit sloppily depicted, but I enjoyed it much better this time after having read your musings on Loki’s psychology during the drama. I can appreciate it now. And when Loki falls into space, we can say goodbye to that characterization. I like Joss’ flamboyant sexy bad guy characterization, but it distort the character away from his Shakespearean complexity.
Well, as many of my readers/blog followers know, I think there are ways to square the tragic Shakespearean anti-villain in Thor with the (apparently) flamboyant sexy bad guy in The Avengers, and my longest ongoing work of fanfiction is an effort to do just that. Loki’s time in the Void definitely changed him; it hardened him in certain ways, but clearly he has also fallen under Thanos’s power in some way or other and remains vulnerable. His loyalty to his family and Asgard (though not Odin) was also recoverable, apparently, so whatever happened didn’t completely turn him evil.
Whedon was deliberately leaving open a possibility for redemption by showing Loki as under threat from Thanos, and not just violent and power-mad but fearful. He also showed that Loki was conflicted, and genuinely tempted by Thor’s offers of affection and salvation. Ultimately, I think Whedon came closer than anyone else to approximating the classical tone of the first Thor, though The Avengers was more epic than tragedy.
5 and 13? :D
5. Which WIP is first on your list to complete this year? Will you post a snippet?
I have two partly posted WIPs that I desperately need to finish; hard to say which one is first on my list. The Abyss Gazes Also has been going since October 2015 (it says posted July 2016, but that’s just when I added the prologue that registers as Chapter 1) and it would probably be good to finish it before Infinity War comes out, considering that it will probably clarify what the relationship between Loki and Thanos was in a way that’s incompatible with what I’ve written. (I was afraid Ragnarok would do that, but so far I’m in the clear.) Here’s an excerpt from the next chapter, which I just started working on:
Getting everyone back onto the Quinjet after this
family quarrel was something of a complicated affair. Fortunately for all of us, Thor and Rogers
had inadvertently cleared an area large enough for the Quinjet to land. The difficulty was that I was still on the
crag above where there was certainly nowhere for the Quinjet to land, and they
needed to find a way to bring me down to the clearing below.Thor volunteered, of course, but
Stark was having none of it. “How do we
know you won’t just take him and fuck off back to Asgard?”“I give you my word that I will
return Loki to your custody.”“Your word? You just dropped in
from the sky, I don’t know you from Adam, and I’m supposed to take your word for it that you won’t abscond with
our mass-murdering psychopath.”Thor was confused. “Who is Adam?”
And the other one that desperately needs finishing is First Things, an entry that I stuck into the middle of my Thorki series because someone asked for it. It was supposed to be short and easy to write, but it’s kind of gotten out of hand, and then of course I was delayed by my dissertation submission deadline, job applications, etc. Here’s an excerpt from the next chapter of that; the background is that Loki has challenged Thor to a quarterstaff match, and the loser has to wear a butt plug to the next High Council meeting. (This is some high literature here, folks.)
The brothers were well-matched
in this kind of contest: they were very nearly the same height, with a similar
reach; and while Thor could put more power into his swings and keep up such
effort for longer, Loki was quicker at dodging blows and darting in for
targeted strikes. But the advantage Loki
had in this instance was a mighty determination to win this wager, which he had
reason to suspect Thor lacked.If Thor was deliberately
letting Loki win, he was at least gracious enough not to be too obvious about
it; he made Loki work even for what might have been a foreordained
victory. An audience gathered to watch
the princes match their considerable skills, both soldiers who wandered over
from adjacent practice courts and nobles (many of them ladies, Loki noted out
of the corner of his eye) who had been passing by when they saw the cluster of
soldiers ringing the one court and came over to see what they were all so
attentively watching. Perhaps some of
the soldiers or nobles had also sent quick messages to summon friends who might
not wish to miss such a match.When Loki was, at last, the first to disarm Thor
and level the end of his staff at his chest, he thought the murmur that rose
from the crowd sounded mostly disappointed—though some genuinely enthusiastic
cheers also emerged from the hubbub (notably from a certain subset of the
ladies). When Thor smiled wickedly at
him and proposed, “Best out of three?”, the much louder cheer from their
audience told Loki that he could hardly say no.
He lowered his staff and leaned a little closer to mutter “Cheater” loud
enough for only Thor to hear even while nodding for the benefit of the
crowd. “Just taking a leaf from your
book,” Thor murmured back. Resentment
flared briefly in Loki’s stomach at the accusation, even though he knew Thor
had a point.
13. Aside from fanfic, are there any other fan works you’d like to try creating? Fanart, or fanvids, gifsets, or podfic?
Nope. I can’t draw, can’t gif, can’t edit videos, and I’m pretty sure no one wants to hear me read my fic out loud. Just fanfic for me.
Thanks for the questions! And here’s the list again, in case anyone is curious…
Thor Ragnarok ficlet
@gaslightgallows asked for: “Just make sure you’ve eaten” Frigga and Loki.
Loki shut the door behind him, finally alone, and he dropped the disguise, rolling his head and shoulders to stretch. The shift didn’t require him to actually hunch over, yet somehow his body always reacted as if he did.
Frigga smiled at him from the table on the balcony, where she was sitting in the light of the lanterns that lined the rail against the darkness of the night. “How went the audience?”
For the Fandom Loves Puerto Rico auction in October, I won/bought via donation an illustration by @not-worms of Loki and Gamora sparring from my Loki-in-the-Void fic The Abyss Gazes Also (along with this moodboard for the same fic). I managed to make Loki and Gamora my own new brotp by writing about them meeting on Sanctuary when Loki is in Thanos’s custody and Gamora helping to train Loki back into fighting shape. Below the cut is an excerpt from Chapter 7, in which they meet and start training together.
For the Fandom Loves Puerto Rico auction in October, I won/bought via donation an illustration by @not-worms of Loki and Gamora sparring from my Loki-in-the-Void fic The Abyss Gazes Also (along with this moodboard for the same fic). I managed to make Loki and Gamora my own new brotp by writing about them meeting on Sanctuary when Loki is in Thanos’s custody and Gamora helping to train Loki back into fighting shape. Below the cut is an excerpt from Chapter 7, in which they meet and start training together.
For the Fandom Loves Puerto Rico auction in October, I won/bought via donation an illustration by @not-worms of Loki and Gamora sparring from my Loki-in-the-Void fic The Abyss Gazes Also (along with this moodboard for the same fic). I managed to make Loki and Gamora my own new brotp by writing about them meeting on Sanctuary when Loki is in Thanos’s custody and Gamora helping to train Loki back into fighting shape. Below the cut is an excerpt from Chapter 7, in which they meet and start training together.
About a month after I was brought to Sanctuary, the door to my cell opened, and it was not the Other who stood there, but the strange green-skinned young woman I had seen while returning from my last interview with Thanos. “I’ve been sent to help train you,” she said brusquely, without further explanation.
I had been sitting cross-legged on the floor, reading one of the books I had taken from interdimensional storage … I looked up at the woman without bothering to stand. “Train me to do what?”
“To fight,” she replied tersely. “I understand you’re somewhat out of practice.”
I scoffed. “‘Out of practice’? How could that possibly have happened when I’ve been confined to a tiny cell for weeks on end?”
The woman ignored my sarcasm. “You’re to come with me. Now.”
After taking the time to stow my book back in its pocket dimension, while the woman cocked her head to one side and glared at me impatiently, I stood up stiffly and followed her. She led me through hallways lined with doors like the one into my cell, until eventually we came to a large room whose door was an open archway. She led me into the room, then briefly disappeared into an adjoining side room. She emerged carrying two long metal staves, and tossed one to me. I fumbled it briefly—my reflexes were slowed by weariness and lack of use—but I caught it before it hit the ground. The woman gave me an unimpressed look before she adopted a fighting stance.
The metal staff was lighter than the wooden quarterstaffs I was familiar with, but the principle was much the same. The woman and I circled each other, sizing each other up, before she struck forward with her staff and I parried with mine; and then the match was on.
I decided I might as well try to make conversation. “And here I’d thought I would just be relaxing in a command ship directing a Chitauri invasion from afar,” I said pleasantly.
“I don’t know anything about what Thanos wants you to do,” she said bluntly. She was quick, agile, and surprisingly strong, and I found myself breathing hard just trying to defend myself from her blows; I had barely tried to press any attacks of my own. Out of practice, indeed.
“I see. What do you do for Thanos, exactly? Besides train new, er, recruits for mysterious missions?”
“I do whatever I’m ordered to do,” she said, terse as ever.
“Don’t we all?” I said with a knowing smile. She said nothing. “May I know your name? Or are you ordered not to tell me?”
She looked surprised for a moment and hesitated in her attack; I thought this might be my opening to put her on the defensive at last, but she recovered quickly. “My name is Gamora,” she said after a few moments’ pause.
“Mine is Loki.”
“I know your name,” she said.
Of course. “I’d kiss your hand, except…”
“I’ll excuse it just this once,” she said, the same grim expression never leaving her face.
Did she just make a joke? I was so surprised that I let my guard down, and she managed to land a blow to my side. It hurt some, but I was too pleased at discovering that my sparring partner had a sense of humor to care.
“Careless,” she said, her face impassive as ever.
“Yes, well, I am out of practice,” I said with a sardonic smile.
For a few minutes we continued fighting without speaking. The stone room echoed with the scraping of our shoes on the floor, the metallic clang of our weapons against each other and occasionally the hard clack of one end against the floor, our breathing—mine increasingly labored and beginning to rasp in my throat, hers finally (I noted triumphantly) showing signs of exertion. I was tiring, but I also felt my muscles waking up after weeks during which my only exercise had been pacing around my cell and occasionally stretching to keep myself amused. Gamora got in two more hits—one to my upper arm, another to my thigh—but I also succeeded once in striking her shoulder. Finally, though, she rapped the knuckles of my right hand sharply with her staff, and I dropped mine with a clatter. Before I could move to retrieve it, she had spun her staff around so that one end of it was pointed at my throat, as if it were a blade. I raised my hands in surrender.
“You may rest for a few minutes,” she said imperiously.
I sat down on the floor with my back against the wall, while she remained standing, one end of her staff resting on the ground. “Water?” I asked, panting a little. She unhooked a small canteen from her belt and handed it down to me. I drank half of it in one go.
“So, Gamora,” I said when I had recovered somewhat, “how did you come to be in Thanos’s service?”
“The same way you did,” she said, her voice carefully neutral. “I was captured.”
“And what did you do before you were captured? Were you a notorious pirate, like me? Or were you a feared mercenary? An infamous intergalactic assassin?”
“No,” she said. “I was a child.”
“Oh,” I said lamely. What does one say to that—‘I’m sorry’? “So—Thanos trained you? To fight, to kill?” For I had no doubt, seeing the flint in her eyes, that she was capable of killing.
“He made me,” she said. “He is—my father. Or so he calls himself.”
“You mean, he made you the warrior you are.”
“No, he made me. He—altered my body. To be stronger, faster; to heal more quickly.”
Well, that explained how she was able to beat me so easily. “And I thought I knew bad fathers,” I said with an uneasy laugh—a weak attempt to lighten the somber mood that our conversation had abruptly taken on.
“You should not say such things of Thanos,” she said, her stern tone tinged with fear.
I shrugged. “It hardly matters what I say; he can listen in on my thoughts at any time.”
Her face seemed to turn to stone, and I suddenly realized that I should have told her that from the beginning: Thanos could use me to spy on her, to see if she harbored thoughts of rebellion.
“Why do you say you have known bad fathers?” she asked flatly. I wondered if she was actually curious, or simply eager to turn the conversation away from herself.
“My father by blood left me to die as a child,” I said. I made myself sound calm and unconcerned, and for a moment I even felt that way, too. “And my adoptive father—did much the same.”
“Then you are lucky,” she said with just the shadow of a smile.
“That I survived?” Every day since my capture, and quite a few days before then, I had felt just the opposite; but I didn’t need to inflict my self-pity on her—especially knowing what horrors her life had contained. “I think I’m just stubborn,” I said instead.
“Then are you ready to be beaten again, stubborn boy?” she asked, that ghost-smile still hovering about her lips. She kicked my staff up with one toe to catch it in the hand that wasn’t holding her own staff and then tossed it to me, all in one smooth motion.
I caught it this time. “‘Boy’?” I repeated. “I’m probably a thousand years older than you.” I used the staff to support myself as I stood up again, which punctuated my statement in a way I had not quite intended.
“Are you ready to be beaten again, old man?” Gamora corrected, a wicked gleam in her eyes.
Um so my lecturer at uni went to cambridge and i keep forgetting to blog about this but she gave Hiddles his first acting gig (her words not mine)
he came up in a seminar because he can speak fluent ancient greek AND CAN IMPROVISE IN IT which is bitching, right!?
SO HERE HE IS in his little bby glory back in the day when he went to cambridge playing Orestes in Electra
@darklittlestories, @raven-brings-light, I absolutely did not know this when I decided on the opera Loki would go see in Chapter 14 of “Abyss,” but I’m feeling pretty good about my decisions right now…
joss whedon: loki tortures and murders people for fun, and, despite being the god of CHAOS, is a fascist who says things like “it’s the unspoken truth of humanity that you crave subjugation”
taika waititi: loki is an annoying little shit who day-drinks, puts on theater about himself, and fucks his way to the top
Oh my fucking God, did y’all even watch The Avengers? Or are you so determined to hate Joss Whedon for every reason you can scrape up that you’ll accept the most shallow, clumsy reading of the movie purely out of spite?
To those who are paying attention, the Loki of The Avengers has pretty clearly been messed up by whatever happened with Thanos. Also, notice what he’s looking at when he smiles about taking the dude’s eye out: not the guy writhing on the bench, but the confused, horrified people screaming and running away from him. Chaos. Notice what he does when he gets himself captured by the Avengers: feed them carefully chosen truths about themselves, expose their hypocrisy, as mythical Loki does in the Lokasenna (thanks for this observation, @seidrade); sow dissension and, yes, chaos among them.
Not that I really expect anyone who’s determined to hate Joss Whedon and everything he does to read something that fits The Avengers neatly into the rest of Loki’s characterization, but I have made a fanfictional effort to do just that which all of its readers have reported is successful.