i love how this starts out like he’s the quiet second son in daddy’s big chair, complete with the little tremor in his voice. then he stands up to full height and suddenly he’s all man-sized and his voice drops like two octaves to inform them that he is their king now and idk man i find it sexy as hell
Alex Melcher as Judas, Drew Sarich as Jesus Jesus Christ Superstar – July 2014, München
I have a friend who’s totally obsessed with this staging, so it’s kind of funny for me to find gifs of it on Tumblr. I honestly kind of think it was the obvious thing to do… hell, I could sense the sexual tension between them in the 1973 movie.
I also tend to think that Judas and Jesus in Jesus Christ Superstar provided the model for Burr and Hamilton in Hamilton–the way the killer functions as narrator/audience stand-in and presents the title character as simultaneously a larger-than-life, legendary figure and kind of an asshole. Which makes it puzzling for me that when I stumble across Hamilton slash fanfic, it’s always Hamilton/Laurens, and an AO3 search reveals more than 4 times as much of that as of Hamilton/Burr. Like… really? Surely there’s more sexual tension between these life-and-death rivals than between an unproblematic pair of friends.
it’s incredible to me how gamora and nebula’s childhood together was so much worse than thor and loki’s and they were literally raised to hate each other but literally the moment nebula blurts out a vulnerable feeling gamora is like “…oh my god I’m so sorry” and next thing you know they’re saving each other and hugging and stuff and meanwhile, thor and loki,
Thor did the same to Loki though. Apologize I mean.And Loki responded by tring to murder him.
I’m not going to act like Thor’s apology in the first movie as he approached the Destroyer wasn’t coming from a good place, because it was, but there’s a very clear parallel between “I never wanted the throne! I only ever wanted to be your equal!” and “You just had to be better, and all I ever wanted was a sister!” and the fact that the latter caused an actual pause in the conflict and reevaluation of the situation and the former didn’t is telling. I absolutely get why Thor’s apology was basically “I don’t know what I even did to you, but I’m sorry”, but there was a tiny window of opportunity to go “wait, THAT’S what your problem is?” well after that, under very similar circumstances, that was bypassed.
Except that Loki didn’t want to be Thor’s equal. He got that when Thor was banished, and threw it away.
you know, you could make literally just as much of an argument that Nebula had already thrown away her chance at just being sisters in the first movie when she cut off her own hand to spite Gamora and escape and therefore didn’t really want it, but that’s dumb because she’s not a real person, she’s a fictional construct, and we kind of have to take her words at face value instead of remotely imposing an opposing view on them, and the same goes for Loki! amazing.
The difference is that Nebula was tortured thoughout her entire childhood, while Loki just found out he was adopted.
I don’t know how to tell you this, but trauma is trauma is trauma and bad parenting doesn’t have to involve cutting your children up. Loki was raised to fear and hate his own species, so it’s not just that he was adopted, it was finding out he’s literally something his father raised him to despise *as well as* Odin putting them in competition with each other too, in a much more mundane but, to use @morethanprinceofcats ’s term, insidious way than Thanos did with Nebula and Gamora, but it was still psychologically harmful.
The difference between the way Nebula’s arc goes and the way Loki’s does is 100% the result of the MCU needing Loki to stay a villain. Thor goes ‘I don’t know what I did to you, but I’m sorry about it’ and that’s as close as the story ever allows them to get to the kind of moment Nebula and Gamora have in GOTG 2. Thor isn’t responsible for Loki’s mental state or his crimes but there is no room ever allotted for him to try to understand where Loki’s coming from, either. Even if he went ‘Loki, I get it, I understand your feelings, our dad really screwed you over, but blowing up New York isn’t going to fix anything and is still wrong’ it would be an improvement over how it’s actually handled. Acknowledging that his feelings are justified doesn’t mean justifying his actions!
I love love love Nebula with a depth of affection I only rarely feel about fictional characters, but drawing this huge line between her and Loki is just that whole Tumblr thing where a woman can do whatever kind of evil shit onscreen and people will still unambiguously defend her as a Strong Cool Lady, *especially* if she has a traumatic excuse for it, but a man having the same situation is dismissed as just boring manpain. This isn’t even nonsensical inverted anti-male sexism, it’s just plain old everyday misogynistic sexism. The idea that women are just naturally purer of heart than men regardless of what they do and their sadness matters more is a patriarchal concept based in the idea that women are also more fragile than men. Nebula is not a better person than Loki, the narrative just allowed her an opportunity for healing and reconciliation where he got none- and I also feel like if he did, there would be people complaining about it on here.
I get that the Loki fandom of old was obnoxious but Christ, this backlash is no better and no more willing to engage with the problems in the source material.
i do not wanna write thor and loki discourse it is TWO THOUSAND AND SEVENTEEN, i s2g
So we’re introduced to Thor and Loki as babbies and this scene takes place, not incidentally or just as mere exposition, but to demonstrate the dynamic that psychologically sculpted the princelings:
Odin: [scary story about the frost giants and their savagery and the wars with them] Loki as a child: [terrified of frost giants] Thor as a child: When i am king, i’ll hunt the monsters down and slay them all, just as you did, father! Odin: Both of you were born to be kings, but only one of you will be! Loki as a child: [looks petrified and anxious] Thor as a child: [looks a bit smug and very excited]
When Loki discovers he is a monster by birth, his immediate train of thought is: So this is why I would never be considered for heir! You would never put a FROST GIANT on the throne of Asgard!
And his immediate train of thought is to kill all of the frost giants and win their father’s approval – a literal 1:1 exists between what Loki does in the midst of a visible mental breakdown and what Thor boasted he would do when he was like, 9.
Killing Thor starts to enter into the picture because if Thor returns and ruins his plot he’ll never show their father, he’ll never prove he was any good!
I’m not excusing this, it’s both bonkers and, you know, to put it mildly, unethical. But this is literally 100% Odin’s shitty child-rearing and imperialistic Asgardian values rearing their ugly head. Like Thor started the movie wanting to start another bloody war with the frost giants himself. Loki is not alone in his arrogance, his militarism.
You know what else there’s a 1:1 between? That time in Avengers Loki stabs Thor in a non-fatal stabbing area with a teeny tiny knife and ruefully says “Sentiment” with tears in his eyes, and Nebula choking Gamora in her hand while ready to thrust a blade into her, and then throwing her aside because she can’t bring herself to kill her.
I am not saying that Thor is a bad person for giving up on Loki after this. I’m just saying it’s a clear executive mandate that he do so because it would take only the barest adjustment in his attitude to get him to reach out to Loki, and there’s honestly no reason to believe that if somebody did – genuinely did – empathize with him and validate his feelings about Odin’s wrongdoings, he wouldn’t respond favorably – or at least start to respond favorably, like Nebula does, without committing to anything.
Nebula and Gamora have committed literally all of the same crimes. The only thing Nebula did that Gamora didn’t do was stick with Ronan after Gamora left, and she had no choice in that. Her first words to Gamora when she meets her in GOTG2 are, inexactly, “You ran off with the stone and abandoned me [to Ronan and Thanos] without looking back, and yet here you stand a hero.” This is probably the best moment of holding-heroic-characters-to-some-semblance-of-an-ethical-standard in the entire MCU because that is literally eactly what Gamora did. She wasn’t even assigned to the mission of getting the Infinity Stone; Nebula was, and Gamora immediately suggested Nebula wasn’t good enough to do it (in an environment where, clearly, Nebula not being as good as Gamora was literally grounds for having her mutilated!) and replaced her.
She didn’t offer to go with her by saying it was too important to send one of them. She didn’t ask Nebula to come leave with her. And it’s clear from GOTG that if she had, Nebula would have done so.
Nebula stayed with Ronan because she had nowhere else to go. She stays with him after he acquires the stone for similarly clear reasons.
Nebula: After Xandar, you’re going to kill my father? Ronan: You dare to oppose me? Nebula: You see what he has turned me into. If you kill him, I will help you destroy a thousand planets.
No fucking wonder homegirl doesn’t leap on board when Gamora asks her to help – now. After ditching her to sell the orb and get as far away as possible. After leaving her with Ronan and Thanos all by herself. No one has ever cared about Nebula otherwise. No one has ever reached out to her except as an afterthought.
It would be perfectly justified, after Nebula tried to kill her (literally; she would be dead if not for Peter) and all of fucking Xandar (even though Nebula actually ditched Ronan before he made it to ground), for Gamora to go with her Plan A and deliver her sister’s ass to Xandar for a bounty. But she doesn’t, because she realizes Nebula and she were in Thanos’ fucked up web of misery together, and Nebula has good reason to hate her.
By comparison, when Thor, knowing his brother had some kind of a legitimate breakdown that made him do unthinkable things, catches up to Loki again, he chides him, “Do you remember none [of our childhood together]?” and tells him all of his problems with Thor are imagined (and they’re not, by the way! They are certainly exaggerated, but they are not in his head), then supposes that the only reason Loki wants to take over Midgard is to hurt Thor, personally. There’s no effort made to empathize with him, there’s no condemnation of Odin’s keeping the secret of his being a frost giant secret; there’s no telling him that he doesn’t mind, specifically, Loki’s being a frost giant. (This has SCARCELY been brought up in the MCU and I’m so pissed off. What IS continuity, Thor franchise??) I’m not saying Thor is obligated to do this! I’m just saying, seeing how Nebula and Gamora’s relationship plays out highlights that Thor doesn’t do it.
There is just not enough of a distinction between their situations, Nebula trying to kill Gamora and Gamora realizing Thanos and his favoritism is responsible for their interpersonal problems and trying to atone for her part in that favoritism, and Loki trying to kill Thor and Thor never questioning their father, ever, and writing Loki off, to say that Loki is just too evil for a comparison to be made. Nebula and Gamora are two of the best and bloodiest assassins in the galaxy and by the time they make up Nebula happily tried to kill her and left Yondu, Rocket and even baby Groot in the jaws of death, so you better not argue that Gamora owed her any more than Thor owes Loki.
Footnote: I didn’t even touch on Thanos’ role in Avengers as the one who sent Loki to Midgard to get an Infinity Stone for him in the first place (Avengers and GOTG have the literal same plot; GOTG does it better). I didn’t mention that Thanos explicitly had Loki do this under the threat of torture – Thanos, who tortured Nebula, Gamora and their siblings to make them better soldiers, out of benevolence, threatened to torture Loki totally malevolently if he failed – or that Loki shows up in Avengers looking and acting like the reanimated cat in Herbert West: Reanimator, twitchy, half-dead and ready to climb every wall in the building and steal some Infinity Stones, and he’s all out of walls. The narrative comparison between Nebula and Loki is not something Megan or I invented out of whole cloth, it’s right there. But the suits want Loki to be a bad guy, and meanwhile James Gunn is apparently writing this from space itself and that’s why his space scenes are so realistic. That’s the difference.
“I get that the Loki fandom of old was obnoxious but Christ, this backlash is no better and no more willing to engage with the problems in the source material.”
also that whole tale of aragorn and arwen thing where he saw her in the woods at twenty and fell instantly in love and it’s very beren and luthien? lies.
aragorn decided he was going to marry arwen when he was like, six.
and everyone thought it was just the cutest thing, baby estel with his little crush on the great immortal evenstar, and everyone would tease him about it relentlessly and he would get so mad, and pout, because how dare they doubt his word.
(arwen spent a lot of time biting back smiles and nodding very seriously when aragorn brings this up with her. no, estel, I do not know why they are laughing perhaps they have remembered a particularly funny joke.)
and then aragorn grows into this gangly teen and oh my god can you imagine being a pimply greasy teenager around fucking elves it’s a wonder he has any self-image left. His voice breaks every other word and the laundresses are beginning to wonder if something is wrong with the sheets because estel keeps washing them himself and aragorn wants to die, god, arwen is never going to marry him if he stays all elbows and skinny knees and he can’t even look her in the eye anymore without blushing, eye contact is probably something to look for in a husband–
(arwen, who never had to go through puberty because elves don’t do anything so undignified, tries to comfort him by saying she likes his blemishes. aragorn gives her a look of such utter, miserable despair that she starts laughing.)
(this is a mistake. he spends the next three weeks nursing his wounded ego and refusing to see her.)
estel is twenty when he asks for her hand. he is lean, slender and fair as a new tree, and so arwen does not feel guilt in kissing his cheek and gently refusing. he is still green, he will weather greater storms than this–and he takes it as he should, clasping her hand and swearing to ever be her loyal friend.
they write to each other–when she is in lorien, when he wanders with the rangers of the north, fights alongside gondor, travels to distant lands. it is an inconstant tie–he is rarely afforded time enough to put pen to paper; she is reserved so as not to encourage what may not be. (she signs her letters always, your friend. She likes him too well to be cruel in this.)
the years pass. his weariness and strife creeps onto the page, and she sends him tokens to fend off the darkness–leaves from lothlorien, the ribbon from her hair, snippets of poems. it is not enough it is never enough I am sorry, she writes.
his reply is gentle: you are enough. do not stop writing.
(she carries that letter tucked inside her sleeve for a long while, like a talisman–though against what evil, she does not know.)
she is in the house of her grandmother when a familiar voice calls out to her: my lady luthien!
this is when arwen looks up, sees aragorn–broad of chest and rugged, still wearing his battered mail, with one hand balanced lazily on the pommel of his sword. All the trees of caras galadhon are gold but he is shadow and silver, kingliness resting lightly on his shoulders–
know what’s wild? that the trope of like “my father always wanted a son so he treated me, his daughter, like a boy” is so popular and like lowkey loved, but if you ever saw a mother who talked about how much she wanted a daughter instead of a son, or if she treated her son like a girl, like??? people would think she’s awful and that poor boy??
damn wonder why that is 😒
i was high af when i wrote this but it’s still true
The latter is literally the plot of some horror movies.
being socialized female is easily recognized as abuse the moment it’s done to a male child
reblogging for that last comment jfc
Well. Misogyny.
And forcing gendered attributes onto any child *IS* abuse. One day we will evolve such that gendering traits/dress/objects is just seen as do fucking passe.
Loki is the Philosopher King 