I’m feeling really crappy right now. Physically nauseous, yes, which doesn’t help, but also… trying to extricate myself from a toxic “friendship,” fighting with my mother about how much she still monitors my life and guilts me about things, not at all sure what I’m going to say in a presentation I have to give in a little over a week, and still in suspense about my location and source of income for next year. But on top of all that, I feel like I can’t even use fandom and fanfiction as an escape anymore, because I’ve become really alienated from the fandom since Ragnarok and the whole thing seems to be as much a source of anxiety as of amusement/recreation.